“I should know this,” I thought, as I stood in front of a vending machine of contraceptions.
“Why can’t I remember my high school health class? Which brand is right for me? Ultra thin? Ribbed? It must be clear to the pharmacists across the way that I don’t know what I’m looking for.”
I blushed as I realized how long I had been standing, staring with a confused look on my face. I grabbed the contact solution next to the machine and shuffled off…this was the last time I tried to buy condoms in public.
At 30, I had a lot of things figured out. But after nearly 12 years of married life, the world of sex and dating had changed. I didn’t know how to navigate this new world.
I began by talking to the most qualified people I knew: my friends.
“I never worry about condoms! Guys are in charge of those,” proclaimed one.
Another told me, “I don’t use condoms. You can’t feel a thing.”
I quickly discovered my friends were not the most qualified to answer my questions.
So I decided to talk to my doctor. But I was nervous!
“I can do this,” I thought as I walked back with the nurse, “Why am I so nervous anyway? This is my doctor. I can talk to them about anything! But I don’t want them to think I’m a slut or a whore.” I couldn’t escape my true thoughts.
The doctor asked if I had any questions. “Yes, I do, Doctor. I would like to know more about condoms…” I thought to myself timidly, and then blurted, “No, thank you, Doctor.” Urgh! Another failed attempt.
I resolved to look online.
I can’t (or won’t) name the websites I went to. So much for her pleasure…it was overwhelming.
The reviews were no better. “Break easily,” is not what you want to read.
I felt embarrassed and ashamed of my own Google searches. I had so many questions, but clearly this information was directed to men. I wasn’t sure where to turn. For a moment I thought,
But as I was surfing online, something unexpected caught my eye.
I stumbled upon condoms packaged for women, designed by a company with a “text a sexpert” phone line. I found a glittery sexual revolution!
I felt my fears and my questions vanish. Finally, I had somewhere to turn. An entire company dedicated to my satisfaction and wellness.
And then my thoughts were clear, “Why wouldn’t I carry condoms!? I mean, I am a smart, funny, strong woman. Of course I should be prepared for any situation.” Voila! I felt like the babe with the power I have always been.
I went for it and bought my first tin! What’s cool is Lovability offers a few different tin designs. They are discreet, easy to carry and the options give you room to express yourself.
My tin reflects me all the way. It proudly states: I WANT IT ALL.
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